Behind the Curtain

You know how some days you have the same conversation with several people? Today there is a definite theme in the messages I'm receiving- and it's all about unwanted feelings. There is a theme of resisting what is. There is wanting to get rid of resistance. Ending resistance is much simpler than it seems. All it takes is looking behind that sensation, what is there?

Here is one of the the chats.

Marin:

Hi Ilona,

Ilona:

Hi :)

Marin:

First of all my English language is not so well, but I can communicate. I was seeking for last 7 years, it was very painful and confusing, but I persist and now whole no self thing is seen more and more clear. After spending years reading tons of books, youtube clips, last push happened when i was reading posts on your blog and LU forum. Today morning I decided that I must contact you, because is grown desire in me to share this message in my country in my language. I live in Croatia and this kind of looking on reality is not known. I can’t find anybody in RL or web who share something like that. As most humans also Croatian people suffer so much and I feel if this message is spread here some steps in reducing of suffering can be made. In my case maybe a few things left to clear up, maybe I have a few expectations ingrained so deep which constantly obscure smooth living. I know that is also just what is but that is how it is now in my case.  So please if you can help me on that, because I feel that I am not honest enough to share this message with my surroundings if I have some doubts left. I think now is the right moment in me to finish first step and start spreading this message. I am 39 years old male, my name is Marin, and at the and, maybe it is not important, but my favorite teacher on nonduality scene is Rick Linchitz, he was keeping my focus on these things for few years. Regards from Istria, Croatia !

Ilona:

Hi Marin! Lovely to connect! Glad to hear that no self thingy is clear now and you wish to share that with others. I had that pull to share too and look what happened!

How can I assist you?

Marin:

Thanks you response to me. It will be very helpful if I can pass through few my doubts with you. Hope so after that I will be ready to share this looking with others with honestly. I see clearly that self can’t be found outside imagination, but subtle seeking is still going on, so please what can be done in my case? I don’t know where to look any more or is just more time needed for cleaning up old habits?

Ilona:

Let's have a look together. What kind of doubt is there?

And what should be different?

Marin:

Here is persistent expectation that something must be different, after seeing this, but on the other side how it can be different, if no self  was the case before and after seeing this. I understand that, but expectations are still here. Expectations are "Things will be better".  I know that is fantasy, unrealistic mind stuff, but can’t clear this up...

One more thing, I was reading about some radical and beautiful awakenings, and maybe that also have some impact to my expectations. I know on intellectual level that that is fantasy, but, but...

Ilona:

Well, this is about not wanting to feel unwanted feelings.

Everyone's process is unique to them and yours is perfect for you.

You know, it's ok to feel what you feel.

Marin:

Yes absolutely it is that. Some resisting still going on, but what to do, it will go on until it doesn’t, it is also reality expressing itself. I think in my case that is last thing for more inspecting...

Ilona:

Allow resistance to be here and go or it. Feel it. Where is it in the body?

It's a protection mechanism. It's trying to protect something. Can you look and tell what needs to be protected?

Marin:

It is most felt in my body, as fear. During my whole life i had lots of health problems and many times life threatening danger was felt. Yes there is nothing separate to be protected, but I feel that is own body protection mechanism ..

Ilona:

The fear is protecting something. Look behind it. What is there?

Don't think, just take a peek.

Marin:

I saw these kind of question many times on LU posts, but these kind of conversation one to one is more direct and I see something is start moving in me, I will take some time for looking because i want to be absolutely honest with me and with you. Hope so, we stay in touch, after I respond to your question. Thanks !

Ilona:

It's not about intellectual analysis. Just simply look, what is behind fear.

Write what comes up.

After a while…

Marin:

Good news from here. After we finished our chat I started to look, after just few seconds everything become clear. I’ve just seen what is and what isn’t - self nowhere to find. Body, thoughts, emotions, room table, carpet-- everything present, but self no. I can’t believe that this is so simple, it is like you ask me where is elephant in my room, or do I have third leg, no need for thinking, it’s obvious that those things are not present here. I don’t know what to say -after 7 years of searching, why so hard to see something so simple. Some fears still going on, also doubts but instantly reality is checked, and they lose their grip. Finally answer to your question is that behind fear is nothing, not only fear I can’t find anything behind anything else. Thoughts spinning like before, but that now looks OK. Little fear is going on that I will lose this clarity, so if you have something to add I will be grateful. Thanks for everything!

Ilona:

Aaaaa! Yes! Excellent. That's it- simple and obvious.

Can nothing loose anything?

Marin:

Yes, you are right, who is here to lose anything ?!  I must ask one more time why, why, why is so hard to see something so obvious, why so many books and teachings and complications. I am now so, don’t know what to say, 7 years to see something so simple ???

Ilona:
It never occurs to look behind the curtain.

Marin:

Thanks one more time for everything, I am sure now that I can share this message with honesty. If one day something doubtful pops up I feel free to contact you again. Thanks, all of you help people with something beautiful.

Ilona:

You are so very welcome! Croatia is ready! :)

:)

Hope V Doubt

There is a saying in Lithuania: hope is the mother of fools and she never abandons her children.

What does the word hope points to? Something that will happen in the future and will be in alignment to what I want. Expectation of fulfilment of desire for something that I don't have now. The carrot that drives a human into a bright future... Illusion that runs the world...

As well as a brilliant product to make lots and lots of sales. Everyone wants some of that and it seems impossible to live without hope.

It was one of hardest things for me to let go. But then I saw it: it's absolutely unecesary and pointless. Is there hope in nature or only in a human head? What do you think?

Who needs hope if not the the ego. As it's unhappy with the now, it wants something else all the time. How many times did I buy a book, a product hoping that this is it, it's got the answers I need in order to get happiness.

Thing is, it's not the hope you need but doubt! Who wants to buy doubt? Nobody. Well, its free anyway.

Ego likes to be in charge, know stuff. Doubt is something that is pointing to not knowing, to not being able to explain. Who wants that? Knowledge is so important in the world of sleepers.

Nobody likes their sense of reality challenged. It brings feelings of uncertainty up. That is not a safe place to be. Suddenly world that you knew slips away and you feel vulnerable, confused, naked...

And here I am selling doubt. It's not a popular product and most people would try to avoid and hide from it. Ignore it like it's something bad.

Doubt is necessary, it rises questions up. It allows to drop all you know and opens the possibility to awakening.

So drop the hope that everything will be fine and let the doubt in.



"Great Doubt, Great Awakening,
Little Doubt, Little Awakening,
No Doubt, No Awakening." (zen proverb)

Let go of hope, who needs it when all you know is wrong. All spiritual books are filled with hope, they make you seek that which can not be attained rather than rise doubt. Only doubt has power to set you on the path of thinking for yourself. It's dark, unfamiliar but true. And in the end you'll drop the hope and see that it's useless. Do not believe me, doubt what you read, think for yourself.

What is it that you are certain of? What do you know for sure? What is it that you are hoped up about? Awakening?

Doubt all you know until there is no one to know.

Now.

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Blues of busting loose....

Last couple of months I enjoyed the company of busters on Robert Scheinfeld Facebook page. It was great ride and now the page is getting closed as it is not a pure phase 2 player environment anymore. I just say it has busted loose. You can see the same characters as on Who owns the Truth post.
Love to all :)


BL- busting loose
E/S- expanded self

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Part 1.

Johanna:
How do I "bust loose" more than I have?? I know about the process and the miniprocess, things are ok, but in order for them to be a-ma-zing - what more am I to do? You probably say nothing? But I read in BL; that after you have busted loose i.e become free you can do anything. So what more?


Johanna:
I realize this is very similar to channeling actually! "You are creators"

Tim:
There is nothing more for you to do but to awake more into the truth that every thing you thought was real is just a wonderful story. When you get to the point that you really feel that truth all you have to do is notice the experiences that prove it to you and it starts to snow ball from there. Keep in mind you can not speed anything up it will all happen when its meant to happen for you. I found for myself that it can be very subtle at first because it is just so smooth and flowing. It really helped me to just stop pushing and just relax into knowing I am being taking care of by something much larger than my play persona in the story.

Johanna:
did you read BL from the money game, word by word? "yes you can create this and this if you please"?

Tim:
Yes I did of course. The you that creates is the fully awake you not the player aspect you. It can be a bit confusing because there really is no separation it only appears that there is. So yes you create anything you really want but the aspect of you in the hologame does not create by doing anything. In the model your E/S creates using the field but really no one knows how things are created it is beyond our limited understanding we have here while we play.

Tim:
I think a better word would be to relax with it more.

Johanna:
yes well in the end it will sound like there is no busting loose, it was just a trick, all this method and numbers, yet that is what his book was about.

Tim:
In the end it will be what ever you really want it to be.

Tim:
Robert once said this and I feel its the truth " Nothing can happen in your experience if your E/S did not write a script for that first and then energize it and pop you into the middle of the story... That is why you can't make a mistake what ever happens in your hologram is exactly what your E/S wanted to have happen... down to the smallest detail."

Johanna:
why do peoples souls want different things btw?? they dont want the same stuff,, does it have to do with the souls plan? past lives?

Johanna:
Anyway.. let me see what positive changes are coming, things have to move again.. I heard one person here read the BL book, wow.. not many.

Ilona:
You are sooo confused....

Johanna:
You are a sad girl..> glad I can pick my friends.

Well its not really Roberts fault who comes to this page and how they communicate, just have to remember people are people and some think they are there, when they clearly are not. I just read a text about that yesterday.

Oh my lovely spiritual friend just came online, from CA! Just the great advice, how to avoid negative chats.

Jane:
The model gives directions but doesn't hold the answer and holding on to what it will be like ( which seems to be the good stuff ) is grasping at straws. No answer can come from theory.

Johanna:
I realize that. Either there is the ES + energy field or Rob did not create a real model.

Kevin:
There are no "different souls", there are no souls. there is just the avatar in the experience, The thimble on the Monopoly board.

But picking up from what Tim said, there is the famous quote of Bobby Knight to Connie Chung

"If rape is inevitable, relax and enjoy it."

Johanna:
Tim said, something is beyond our understanding. How can it be if you are free?? and one with all=

Johanna:
If Rob once came here, Id like to tell him I feel very few understand the BL "energy field".. maybe on his new site.

Jane:
What do you mean a `real`model - are you wanting a `how to`model?
There is an energy field but that is just part of it, but how about you trying to find it for yourself, which means it will come from your own inner experience, rather than someone else's.

Ilona:
It's not about understanding, but sincere investigation, challenge, honesty and readiness to leave every belief that you have.
Thinking is not for children. One has to grow up and stop living in a fantasy world.
Sad but true....

Tim:
Johanna, forget about the "energy field" and forget about creating things for now, this work is more about discovering the TRUTH of what's really going on first and everything else will fall into place easily and with no effort. If what your really interested in is being proactive in creating while you play here then I would recommend you just keep working with the LOA.

Elena:
Tim, I recommended that to Johanna on couple of occasions:)

Johanna:
Jane, yes Robs book is a model on HOW to, I dont understand how you guys read BL??? There is Self and energy field, which is all around actually, and a figure you create! Page after page he says this!

Ilona:
What you think is important, not what book said. Many books say different things. Does that mean that they all true?

Tim:
Johanna, you will never create anything, nothing, zip, nada, no way no how. The book plainly tells you this. The book says the you outside of the hologram creates, you have no power at all to create in the hologram. You are confusing the two yous which can be confusing I know. The you playing here does NOT create, at least not in the way your thinking of it.

Kevin:
If the book is a model on HOW to, then why do you bother coming here and asking questions?

You cannot bust loose "more". Either you bust loose or you don't. As long you are looking for more - like I said before, as long as you are not FULFILLED - you are not "busted loose".

Johanna:
My God I have understood it a LONG ago that "I" dont create, you dont seem to understand I am one with my higher self! So if I Say "I" its not the lower persona, but the soul"""

Elena:
Your soul needs some $$$ ???

Johanna:
Maybe you could read BL and then discuss with me?? The book IS about creating unlimited money AND being free, not one or the other.

Kevin:
I could give a link to an audio that would explain this perfectly, but it is pretty clear that it would be completely lost on you.

Elena:
And you read the book, and not free, and not have unlimited money. So what to discuss with you???

Johanna:
I am sorry I am so helpless, but what can you do with these philosophies.

Ilona:
Right on Kevin. Lol

Elena:
And I am free and have money. Isn't that strange??:) And what I did different?

Johanna:
?? I am free for Gods sakes. Maybe I need to chat with ROB! I am talking about the technique, of the soul and the energy field. If you all are so wise, once again; HAVE YOU CREATED UNLIMITED MONEY LIKE IN HIS BOOK

Elena:
Hey, to chat with Rob you will have to have money.

Johanna:
I never said I dont have money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I said how does THIS technique work. > well I guess it is just "focusing"

Elena:
Focusing on what?

Ilona:
Rob charges $1000 an hour.
But I don't think that it would help you.

Johanna:
Once again; ETERNAL SELF, ENERGY FIELD, FOCUS IN THE FIGURES AND THEY APPEAR.

Ilona:
Hahaha.

Who is to focus?

Elena:
You can focus to the point you have blue face, how would the $$ appears??
I don't focus, and money is here.

Maybe thats the secret?

Johanna:
"where does money come from? it is a figure in the field, that has its own details."(p 85) "you can create anything you like when you BL" "all money comes from you and a figure in the ZP field". "therefore your money is unlimited".p 90 "it is easy to create any sums of money from any source, just by creating a suitable figure in the zp field", giving it power and manifesting it." I think that word "ilmentää" is always translated as "manifesting".(sorry Kevin)

Ilona:
Johanna, who is to focus?

Johanna:
GOD..

Johanna:
my God!

Elena:
Focus on my God, maybe it will work

Kevin:
OK......

The original HTS was a video recording of a live event that took place Halloween 2005 just a couple of months after Hurricane Katrina (the first event was held on Father's Day weekend the same year, and one of the participants was from New Orleans and was wiped out by Katrina)

In attendance in October was a very reticent fellow from Virginia who was a jet salesman. As Robert was discussing what at the time he referred to as "The Stretching Tool", he gave a nod to Gary(?) and he said that even at that stage of having busted loose, he would not be comfortable writing a check for $50 million to express appreciation for a jet WITH the caveat that he had no motivation to express appreciation for a jet.

Johanna:
Not your God Elena, Robs is richer haha

Elena:
Robs God Rocks!

Johanna:
Kevin, ok, but I still quoted the exact point..

Ilona:
There is something that might help you. Insider stuff... Maybe you will see what we all are pointing here to you, but you just refuse to accept.

http://markedeternal.blogspot.com/2011/01/imagination.html

Johanna:
real or unreal, I quoted the book like it is.

Ilona:
So basically, book lied to you.

Johanna:
"where does money come from? it is a figure in the field, that has its own details."(p 85) "you can create anything you like when you BL" "all money comes from you and a figure in the ZP field". "therefore your money is unlimited".p 90 "it is easy to create any sums of money from any source, just by creating a suitable figure in the zp field", giving it power and manifesting it." I think that word "ilmentää" is always translated as "manifesting".(sorry Kevin)

Ilona:
Have you busted loose?

Johanna:
I just asked, how exactly do you do it more? I realize perfectly we are spiritual higher D beings having a human 3d experience, actually I am not so much in 3d anymore...

Ilona:
There is no more or less, but either yes or no. You can not understand. There is no you to understand. That is what is going on here. Once you see that, then you bust loose.
We can not explain to you, enquire into it yourself. Like we all did.
You have to start seeing that you are stuck.

Johanna:
I do know the lower self is different or that is is a play.. must I repeat this.. so did you all create the unlimited money, huh?

Johanna:
"You all who understood the book"

Ilona:
There is no lower self.

Johanna:
bla bla. Did you create unlimited money, who ever you are, a ghost maybe?

Ilona:
Lol.
This is great.

Blah blah.
The blah blah part you should really pay attention. See you can't hear the truth...

Johanna:
Did you create unlimited money? "You" or the "ES part of you" or whoever. answer please.

Ilona:
No you. There is only es part, or in simple language- life.
Life is going on by itself, but in your head there is an idea, that you are separate from life and need to manipulate it to be happy.

No you, only life.

Johanna:
Did you create unlimited money like in Busting loose from the money game?

Ilona:
I would say irrelevant.
There is no one to care about money any more. It's in the opposite direction to where you are looking.

Johanna:
So the first half of Robs book does not work, I see.

Ilona:
Seriously. Forget the book.

Look at what I am saying.

The idea that there is self that does things, thinks, is a misconception. In truth there is no separate self. Life, e/s is all there is.
Who is doing breathing? You? Or does body breath by itself?
Same with everything. Look!

Johanna:
So you did not create unlimited money.. I see. You, or life, no matter what you say.

Ilona:
It's not how you imagine it. Whatever you think that it should be, it isn't.

Tim:
Johanna, If you feel you are one with your larger self go ahead and focus on creating using the field but I'm afraid that you will be disappointed. In the model nothing the part of you here in the hologram does has any power everything here must be created outside of the hologram and if you don't like that then I really think you should forget the book and the model and move on to something else. I mean that in a very nice way.

Ilona:
Abundance just is. You can not have abundance, but only experience.
Direct experience.
No higher self, no soul, but experience.

Elena:
Johanna, I created an unlimited money. I never feel the limit when I am inspired to do something, for that something money is there. Abundance is not unlimited money.
ABUNDANCE IS THE ABILITY TO DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU WANT TO DO IT! (Bashar)

Elena:
ABUNDANCE IS
THE ABILITY TO DO
WHAT YOU WANT TO DO
WHEN YOU WANT TO DO IT!

Tim:
Hey Elena, that has a nice beat and I can dance to it

Ilona:
yey Hali Hali.
Yey yey yey u lia lia.

Johanna is an example how people are confused by models. Even if there are pointers to truth in books, the only true pointers are those who say to look for yourself.
The rest is only leading to confusion.

Perfect example to finish bl fb page. :)





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Part 2



Hi Robert,

I used to be one of your followers and I was really into your work. It became my process. I was drilling when I was feeling pain and repeating Truth that I am the power of universe.

And then you recommended Jed McKenna. I though, yeah, right, another one guru has much to say. When I read his first book I was blown away by honesty, sharpness, truth fullness and it indeed changed my life. It was my first step and I busted loose from busting loose. That was back at Easter time. Grateful for that.

After reading the rest of jed and some serious burning of beliefs, all that is untrue, I finally busted loose for real. I awoke, I saw no self and life has changed forever.

Then a blog started up and I went back to your fb page. this time not to share my drilling experiences but help those who were ready to bust loose. There are a few more awake characters since my appearance there.

I look back at your work now and I see a perfect business plan, but not much to do with truth. Yes, you tell people what is truth and who they are, but that is not gonna lead them to freedom or in your words, busting loose. It's just gonna keep them hooked on your special and privileged knowledge for chosen ones who send you tons of money and are happy to. You give them a secure illusion and they give you yours.

Whatever your journey is and whatever games you play, this game does not seem honest. That's why I'm writing to you this time. I see that you are not awake and misleading others. Otherwise this wouldn't be happening. Now people who read you books are parroting your words and are running in circles for years! They have been misled by you into more blindness. They have been hurt by your lies that keep them in a box, which they imagine that does not exist.

If you read jed McKenna yourself, you must recognise how pointless your model is and how there is only one true teaching- think for yourself. Rather than adding in to illusion and reinforcing sleep, the only way to busting loose is by subtracting all that is belief and waking up from lies. First step is stopping following anyone else and starting to think.

I want to ask you, do you see that you are hurting people for money? Do you see that you are dishonest?

If your followers are singing in unison how much they appreciate you and the illusion that you put in their heads, that does not mean that you are doing any good, only that you have hypnotised them into this, gave them a carrot and milk them for your selfish benefit. nice.

please answer what you say about this. No answer is also an answer.

This is also going on my blog. It has been fun time on your Facebook page, thank you for creating that space. Nice.

Happy holidays.
Sending love,

Ilona.

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Here is Robert's reply:

Hi Ilona ...

Thanks for writing.

I have only a brief response for you. You have painted a very vivid picture of me and my work in your mind.

It makes sense to you. You resonate with it. It seems accurate to you.

I have no interest or desire to change your mind, "defend myself," or have a point by point debate with you to point out where my perspective would say you are inaccurate -- about me as a person, my body of work, and its contents.

I honor your perspective and your "right" to have it within the storyline.

Your path is taking you in a different direction than mine. I wish for you an ever expanding experience of your natural state of Infinite Power, Wisdom, Abundance and True Joy as you travel that path -- and/or any other paths you may leap onto down the road.

Happy Holidays!

- Robert


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Hi Robert.

Thanks for answer. It looks like it fits every question that you may get asked about you and your work. True master of illusion. Nice.

Only you haven't answered my question:

" I want to ask you, do you see that you are hurting people for money? Do you see that you are dishonest?"

Please don't try to talk your way out of this answer saying that i'm imagining you. I'm immune to your hypnosis, since there is no me. I'm free of lie of self and the best I can do is to hold the sign, which is: there is no knowledge required to get out of illusion, only thinking for yourself and being honest.

The situation with telling Elena not to share the knowledge on fb with those who haven't paid you for it is quite ridiculous, don't you think? It makes you look like a sad bussinesman operating from limitation and trying to teach about limitless. Ha ha ha.

I know what you are going to tell me (probably just copy and paste), so don't bother, but look deeply into the possibility that all "your body of work" is only a useless guidance into more illusion rather than out. I see that only a blind can lead people into blindness. Time to clear your vision too.

Honestly.


Regards
Ilona

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 Part 3.

Do your thinking.

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Part 4.

There is a model, there is no you.
All that you are trying to do is get distracted from looking. It only takes a few minutes of focused looking. It takes years to follow a model. What else is there to know???


Do more thinking. For yourself.

Imagination

Thoughts are like painter's brushes, one can use them to paint images of reality in imagination. Fictional worlds are many, characters are real, vivid and it's easy to get lost in the mind.

You can close your eyes and imagine yourself somewhere else than where you are. As well as the past and future. Memories are also in imagination, same like fear, worries about what's to come. Depending on the mood your world can be painted in different colours...

Most people live in their heads. Sounds familiar? Look into your thoughts through the day, what is it that they contain most? Past, future, Jesus?

Thoughts either reflect what is or create what isn't. But they are never gonna touch that which is beyond mind. They can only describe what is within the limits of language.

The power of thought is real but only in the imaginary realm. In reality, thought has no power. It can not manipulate what is. The power is behind the thought in feeling, intention. Thought translates unseen into seen. Like electric current, it connects two worlds: real and imaginary, feeling and words describing the feeling.

"Self" is in imagination. You think, you create, you have power and that is all just in imagination. You is as real as fictional characters, no more.

In reality there are no separate selfs. All is happening without "you" doing anything. Just watch nature, see how alive everything is and how your body is not separate from it. The separation is in imagination.

Thoughts are happening, they come and go. If one thought persists, it becomes a starting point of beliefs that sprout from it. So here comes the thought "myself" and beliefs start circling, clinging, attachments form, imagination runs wild and here you go- you don't even have a clue, that all you believe is true just in imagination. You take all that for granted and never question if what you know is true.

One word: Jesus.
Imaginary Jesus lives in a head builds walls around with religious beliefs. Don't touch Jesus. This is one thing that religious human will defend with zealous force and will not let anyone challenge that. Well, Jesus is not here, so he can not clarify what happened, really. So all beliefs about Jesus are just that- beliefs. This is a grand challenge to open religious humans eyes, cause they are not going to let you. It's unthinkable in their view of reality. Imaginary reality.

Everybody lives in separate imaginary worlds. That's how the planet got messed up. People don't see what is, but only what they believe that is. As many people- as many realities. Unless you wake up, you live in a fantasy world, missing the point completely.

To end the separation one must be willing to surrender and let go of imaginary world. Only then one can see through the veil of illusion. Let go of unreal. Start by doubting. All you believe is not true. Test it.

Imagination is a tool. Once you wake up you can use it without being trapped by it. No more imaginary self, no more confusion.

So today I invite you to look at the content of your mind and notice, that the world in the mind is a fantasy. What you believe is true- it's true only in your own imagination. Reality is nothing like what you think. Challenge that!

Thinking is not for children. One needs to grow up to start thinking for himself. This is not a joke.

If somebody challenges your way of thinking, the red alert kicks in and all you do is get personal, angry, frustrated, that is a clear sign that you are protecting beliefs, protecting the sense of self and rather than get critical about the "attacker" look closely at what are you holding on, this is the exit, that is the door. The less beliefs are in the system, the smoother the ride, less bumps on the road.

So what is the next imaginary thing that you are not ready to let go? If you start from "self", you will hit the bull's eye. This is the real deal. Find what is real. Challenge everything.

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The Judge

Watch this video if you haven't seen it yet.

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There is a line which divides good from bad. There is a judge that decides to which side what belongs. It is trying to fix, change something in himself and others. Especially others. There is misery, there is wanting more, not having enough, seeking, trying to be something, desire for something else.

This is how it works:
Idea appears in thinking and the judge starts evaluation. It decides if this fits to what judge would approve or not. If it's good, it's cool, but if it's bad, then the resistance starts building. The judge keeps working on the case building it up, adding in more drama and eventually explosion happens. The bad seems even worse and there is huge amount of energy around it.

Now when it's good it's cool, but it's not enough. Need more, more more...

This judge in a head makes a line and decides stuff AFTER the brain has made the decision! What a parasite! The decision is made and it would be nice to be at peace with it, be in the flow, but judge wants to be in control! He must have his last word. And yes, he/she is always right!!!
What a crazy thing is going on!..

Imagine life without a judge! Life free from nagging, free from the voice in a head that has to resist what is and endlessly divide. Free from need to be always win, be right, know, impress, seek affirmation.

This is easy, you just need to find that judge and fire him, tell him/her to go and never come back!

Oh, wait! It's not real! There is no judge, it's only a thought pattern that there is you doing thinking, making choices.

Will you get rid of the lie by installing new affirmations trying to change thought patterns? No.

Only clear seeing that there is no separate self, there is no you that is in charge of your life can destroy this judge for good.

So life is going on, everything is happening, brain is receiving input, reacting to stimulus, running the body, and making choices! What does yourself has to do with it? It's like a useless moaner in a head. Isn't that great news....

it's great cause you can live without it! The system will function just as well if there was no judge and there is no more responsibility! Just letting brain take care of business! There is no one to care what happens, total trust to the brain. Brain knows what to do, it has always made choices for you. They all were perfect. Only the judge did not think so.

Time to release the judge.

There is no line, there never was.
Clean up the thinking. You are not the judge.
There is no You,
Look!

It's just a feedback loop. Going on by itself. Only because it hasn't been judged yet! Judge that judge.

...When judge is dead
All that is left
is clear judgement.
When this tool is needed.
No more annoying voices,
No more choices,
Life is running itself
Enjoying pure being.
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Knowledge

What is there to know? Do you need a teacher?

Teacher is somebody who knows the way more than the student and is passing on the knowledge of the way.

Student is the seeker of knowledge.

And there are those who point to the thinking for yourself. Pointers to the moon, not teachers about the moon. You don't want to learn about the truth, you want to see it for yourself. Only then you are free from conditioning. Only when you rip the veil of illusion.

Think: what does an ant know about life? How about a caterpillar, how much he know about a butterfly?
How much more does a unawake human know about life?

How can you say, you know how life  works, when all you see is through the eyes of tiny separate human limited by his own imagination?

There is no knowledge on how to wake up. There are teachings, beliefs, illusions, dreams about the knowledge. Plenty of that!

You only need to look. For yourself, by yourself. That only takes a few minutes of focused intent to see. Seeing happens when knowing drops.

Look around, who is here to teach? And to teach what?

Knowing is not the same as seeing. I see that there is nothing to know and nobody knows anything, they only think they do. And usualy the teachers are convinced that they hold this knowledge and you need it to wake up. Its a lie, because, there is nothing to know! Thinking about no self is not the same as looking at it. Knowing about awareness is not the same as being aware.

How to stop seeking? How to become free of urge to know what other people have to say, so you don't have to think?

There are two ways:

First: (Ha ha) Best tool is hypnosis.  Get yourself hypnotised by some idea and you have stopped your own thinking. All view is installed and there is no chance that you will ever question it, it's working on its own self protection.  Any idea against the view is automatically denied. The model is the one! The path is the one! The teaching is what you need! - all this is hypnosis. Following without questioning is not going to take you home. It will only thicken the fog of illusion. But you will stop seeking as you will believe, you have arrived.

Second: working trough the fog of illusion untill you see and then the seeking drops. Clear seeing begins.

When you are feeling stuck, it's a sign that you are holding on. Letting go is easy, when you know what is it that you are holding on. But how can you see if you have been hypnotised? Hm.

Start from allowing that it is possible, that you have been hypnotised either by idea or a person. Look at this phenomena  and start thinking for yourself. There is nothing out there that you need to know to wake up. Nothing. There is no knowledge. You only need a clear intention and courage to look. That's all.

And yet, how to wake up?

Don't look for the answer outside, rather find a teacher in you, and it's all you need. As long as you are looking for an outside teaching you are avoiding to look for the answer yourself.

So look for the teacher inside. Turn around.

Follow the signs in outside, the ones that are pointing to burning beliefs and thinking for yourself. These are the ones that are pointing to the way home. the rest are foggy teachings about fog by fogged up "teachers".

When you get lost in idea, examine the glue. What beliefs is it made of? What ideas are you protecting? What is it that you do not want to give up? The emotional charge is the glue. Resistance to letting go brings strong feelings up. The more you are infected with idea, the more tension is in the mind and in the body. Observe that. Look for the clues. Search and destroy!

You can do that by writing. Write it all out, until you can see trough the fog with clear thinking. Pen is a sword that cuts through illusion. If you have a pure intent to rip the weil, it's your tool. Use it!

Trust the teaching of the inner teacher! Let it guide you through the fog into awakening.

And this is not my teaching, but only pointing to turn around, to look inside. I have nothing else to tell but follow your inside teacher and outside signs.

Signs that are pointing home:

There is no path.
There is no knowledge required.
There is no self.
Look, think, see.
Write. Write more. Write to me if it helps.
Time is now.

Wake up.


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The Lie

I invite you to search for the lies. The  discomfort while facing the lie is a sign that there is resistance in the system.

Good thing is you don't need to look far away. It's all right here. Just look inside.


I own my life - lie
There is no you, just life. Life force animates the body and moves thoughts. It's not your life.


The body is mine - lie
The body is. Just like trees, stars, animals, all just is. You do not control body. All is happening by itself. All systems are working without any need of you to control anything.

The mind is mine - lie
The mind is. It was before your body and after. Thought, ideas are in the mind, brain is a receiver.


Emotions are mine - lie.
Emotions arise and go. Feelings follow, it's beyond your control, it's not something that self can direct. Test it.


Beliefs are mine. It's what I am - big lie.
Beliefs are programs that are installed into the system without conscious observation by the method of repetition. Another way of programming is through hypnosis. Like Richard Bach said: suggestion accepted is hypnotism. SUGGESTION! All beliefs are running in a head creating mess and pain. You do not choose beliefs. The system is bombarded with information and new beliefs stick to old beliefs. Beliefs fly in to the system like flies to the light.  The strongest beliefs are those of culture and religion as everyone around is in.

So the mind is not yours, beliefs in it are not yours, so  here we come to the biggest lie, that everyone is in:

I am me. Me that controls everything in my life.- huge lie!
There is no self that has any control in life. Life is not something that can be controlled by monkeys, fish or human. Life is flowing where it's going and no human has any control over it. There are just the characters that life is playing with. And in the story these characters believe in self.


I have free will- another big lie.
There is nothing that you do because you will it. Let's try an experiment here. Raise your left arm now. Is it up? Ok, put it down. Did you do it? Was it the instruction to the mind that was given by the words that were read made the arm rise up?  Or if the arm stayed where it was, was it the resistance of the mind to the instruction? That is not the choice, it's programming which said to go with instruction or resist it. It's not free will, there is nothing here that yourself can do. It's like an itch. There is an itch and it's followed by scratch. The itch in the thoughts informs the scratch to happen. Can you do anything about it? There is no you, right, all is happening by itself. Free will is just another lie.

Life is a game I chose to play and when I have enough I will wake up and that is going to be the end- sweet lie.
Life is not your game, the body is a creation same as sims character in a computer game. Personality is just a characteristics of the puppet. It is not up to you when it's enough to play and when it's time to wake up. All just happens as the story develops. And when one wakes up and sees that there is no self, the game is not ending, but the mess in a head is getting cleaned up. So here we all are waking up, this is the story.

I can do something to wake up - lie.
You can not do anything. You only exist in the thoughts which are flowing through the space time. The quality of thoughts depends on level of consciousness. The receiver brain tunes in different channels of thought. The waking up happens, all you can do is go with it. It's not something that can be controlled. The part is being played out. All by itself.

I am creating all around me including other people. - awful lie.
Life is expressing itself and this expression does include your body and other bodies, monkeys, animals, trees, nature. As well as the mind which contains thoughts. One of them thoughts is that it is you creating your environment. Are you sure that when your body dies all this that you see is going to collapse into nothingness? It's just sooo childish! Grow up!


I am the power of god- lie lie lie.
Can you click your fingers and make stuff appear? Can you create anything from thin air? Can you win a lottery? Can you stop wars? Can you do anything?  These are just thought "I am the power of god". It's all severe brainwash, thoughts appearing in a head because your system is infected with thoughts of pride and specialness. Sick.


I am very special - lie.
Everything is alive with same life force. Nothing special, but twisted mind makes it appear so. Look at that need to be above somebody else and look, there is no you. No self. Zero. How special is zero?

Life is complicated. -lie
Life is simple. Lie is complicated.


There is no truth- lie
There is truth- seek it out. All you need is intention. Purify intention. Follow the itch. Go trough demolition of the lie. There is an end to lies. The core of lie is I.
L - I - E. <this is ironic.

Self is a lie that is hiding in a daylight. It's not dark, look, see for yourself. Until you see. You have no other responsibility but wake up. We, awake, are waiting for you so you can join and help to wake the rest. This is part of the play, where everyone wakes up, no matter how deep you are asleep. So the story goes.

Kill the lie that blocks the way to freedom. Rise up!

Follow the itch. It's taking you home. 
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So how to kill the lie? Your sword is truth, the intention is fuel. Stay alert and conscious. Ask questions: is it true? Is this true? Is it true that there is no me? WTF is going on? Really. Don't look for the answers, but look for the truth. Focus on the truth, the lie can not stand that. Be that curious kid again.

This is a killer for the lie. Try.


One more thing. You are either in a comfortable zone which is boring, because you are asleep, or having all kinds of intense experiences and rush, like never before, because you are waking up. Until it happens, and after. Cleaning up maybe as intense. It's either before, during or after, nothing else matters. Just keep the sword of truth close and write more.


Trust me not, test it!

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Check what StepVhen says about lie.

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