Looking Inside With N.

I have been working with people using this "Deep Looking" technique. It is talking to mind, heart and whatever comes up directly and listening to the answers as they come up. Being kind and showing appreciation to whatever comes up allows a deep release and expansion followed by re-connection of broken links and deep peace. Here is my conversation with N. He was skeptical and open at the same time. It was amazing what came up to the surface. Hope this is can be useful for you in looking inside by yourself.

A lot can be released if you only listen to what your mind and heart is trying to say. 

I:

i'm here is you here..

N:

yes

howdy!

I:

cool. i'm great. you?

N:

I'm feeling good, been watching some SIG retreat stuff. I came across when I first posted on LU.

I:

are you ready to start?

N:

yes

I:

ok, good. what you do is ask questions that i suggest and listen to answers, then write them to me.

ask your mind, literally: mind, are you at peace.

N:

okay, lets do it.

the first question is no.

I:

ok good. thank the mind and ask it if it would like to relax more.

N:

yes and tears.

I:

oh... give the mind a hug and a kiss.

tell it that you appreciate it very much.

N:

that calmed it down, breathing spiked for a brief moment in that sadness.

I:

Ok, ask the mind if it's ready to relax.

N:

there’s tension in the head, faint no.

I:

Ok, thank your mind. Ask it what does it want so it can relax

N:

the mind wants resolution.

throat is tense.

I:

Beautiful. Tell the mind that you are very grateful and that this desire is very welcome.

It's ok, let whatever comes up be welcome.

Ask the mind if it's ready for resolution.

N:

the mind says yes.

I:

Beautiful. Ask it if it's ready now.

N:

it says it doesn't know what to do.

I:

It's ok, tell it it's safe not to know.

Ask it what it wants to resolve.

N:

its asking if its still going to be here after the resolve.

I:

Of course! Tell it that you appreciate it very much and that it's not going anywhere. You love it and want it to keep working for you.

N:

it said okay and an image of a smile happened.

I:

Smile to the mind and give it a kiss.

Tell it now that it's safe to resolve and ask what does it want to resolve.

N:

there’s nothing there.

just fan blowing

I:

Ok, great. Ask it now if it's ready to relax more.

N:

it says yes i would like to.

I:

Beautiful. Ask it of its ready now.

N:

resistance.

its saying, you can't make me.

I:

Great! This is good. Welcome the resistance.

Tell it, thank you for showing up.

Ask the resistance what it is protecting.

N:

its protecting itself.

I:

Thank the resistance for doing such beautiful job.

Say to it how much you appreciate it working for you. Give it a hug.

Ask the resistance what is it protecting itself from.

N:

hate.

hating others.

I:

Oh, say to resistance, sorry, it's a misunderstanding. You are my friend.

N:

it doesn't want to hate others.

and tears welled up

I:

It's ok. Ask the resistance if it would like to love others instead.

N:

it says yes.

I:

Give the resistance a kiss.

Beautiful. Let's talk to the heart now.

N:

okay.

I:

Ask the heart if it can accept the resistance as a friend.

N:

it says yes!

of course.

I:

Gorgeous.

Ok, ask the mind now if it accepts resistance as a friend.

N:

it says yes i love resistance.

and its asking if that’s normal.

haha.

I:

Beautiful. Thank the mind, the heart and the resistance.

Say that yes, it's normal.

Ask the mind if it can see that resistance is love.

N:

yes i can

I:

It is working to protect the innocence.

N:

its only trying to protect.

I:

Yes.

N:

something curious

about my past

I:

Good. What is coming up?

N:

its curious in depression right now, depression isn't coming up

I:

Good stuff. Let's move on. Ask if mind is ready now to relax more.

N:

but more so about the mood swings

okay.

yes

heart moving up.

that was a sensation that was felt

I:

Great! So feel the opening, take a deep breath in and let whatever feeling is here to pass freely. Feel it fully.

Release. And then more. And more.

N:

there is blankness and one tear out of the right eye is happening.

I:

Nice. Let it all out. Feel it. Feel it fully

N:

i don't know if i can feel it fully is what its saying.

I:

No need for words. Focus on sensation in the body.

N:

small prickling on the scalp

I:

Thank the mind. Hive it a huge hug.

And a smile.

N:

mm!

I:

Cool, ask the heart to show how much it loves the mind.

N:

expansion is happening.

I:

Awesome.

Thank the heart and ask it if it's ready to expand even more.

N:

no.

no. no. no.

I:

Ask it what is in the way.

N:

hurt, abandonment.

I:

Of course! Thank it for bringing this up and give it a warm long hug.

N:

and then i get the image of me when i was younger.

tears at the image.

I:

Tell the mind that it's safe to feel.

Ask the feeling from the past to come closer.

N:

its showing me as a little child, I was at yosemite and I was in a convenient store. My parents couldn't be found. I thought they left me

so I started crying.

tears welling up again.

I hated that feeling, being disconnected

I:

Oh... Say how much you are sorry about that.

Give it a kiss like you would to that small child

Tell the heart that you love it very much.

N:

a smile.

it says it loves me back.

I:

Beautiful. Ask the heart if it's ready to release this hurt.

N:

yes.

it wants to.

I:

Is it ready now?

N:

yes.

I:

Great. Feel it open and take deep breath. Let the feeling come up and feel it. See it pass.

Release all, then more and then even more.

Feel the feeling fully. Don't interrupt. All it wants is to leave.

N:

i got the image of a flower blooming.

and safe

I:

Beautiful. Thank you heart. Bow to it with honour.

Ask the mind if it's ready to relax more.

N:

its saying yes.

I:

Gorgeous. Thank the mind, give it a smile and ask if it's ready to go down to the heart.

N:

it says it wants to but no.

I:

Ok, that's fine, tell it that. Ask it if it knows that it's home is at the heart.

N:

it said it didn't know that.

no one told it that.

I:

Ask it to check if it's true.

N:

it's not sure, it doesn't know how to go about checking, it just always assumed it had its job to do and the heart had its job to do.

I:

Yes, of course. Tell it that it can do its job perfectly while feeling at one with the heart.

N:

it says it makes sense though, because some of the best decisions have been made when it and the heart work together.

I:

Yes! Tell it it's great observation. And thank it.

Ask the heart if it accepts the mind fully and loves it with no limits.

Unconditionally.

N:

the image of the flower is still blooming

no feeling of resistance

I:

Beautiful. Now ask the mind if it made a decision, would it like to feel at home.

N:

it absolutely wants to feel at home with the heart.

it wants the marriage.

it says its actually longed for it.

I:

Beautiful!! Give both the heart and the mind a kiss

Ask the mind and the heart if they are both ready.

N:

they both say yes.

I:

Awesome!

Ask if they are ready now.

N:

yes and i got a quick glimpse of holding hands.

I:

Great. Now switch of the computer, just sit quietly , breath, and feel it joining, keep sending hugs and appreciation to both and just feel it for like 20 min. Let it happen.

N:

i told them they make a good couple.

kk

I:

I'll be here when you come back. Feel whatever comes openly with love.

See you in a bit!

N:

okie thanks be back!

N:

the first feeling that comes to mind is a very still calmness.

I:

Beautiful.

This was very moving for me too, I had tears too and deep appreciation for you showing me this.

I:

Thank you.

How you feeling, enough work or there is something else that came up.

N:

thank you Ilona, i bow to you. I needed that I I see now that just because you know that everything is self abiding, that there can still be feelings of separation at the same time

hmm. at the time there was a small movement but I welcomed it and it passed.

I don't even remember what it was anymore.

I:

Nice. Now you know what to do when mind or heart feels alone. Show them love and remind of each other.

Be very kind to both. They are here for you. All is one feeling of love.

N:

oh that's what it was, in my experience of 20 minutes, I had the image of a little child coming back to its parents

and being loved by both.

thank you!

I:

big smile!

Great work.

N:

I have so much gratitude and appreciation for your work, and thank you.

I:

Can we share this in unleashed? I think it can be very helpful for someone else.

N:

yes, I give you my permission to do so.

I:

Oh, could I put it on my blog? I can use just N if you like.

N:

of course, do whatever feels right.

I:

Thank you!