Dear Ilona
Can you help me and guide me all the way to see the truth?
I wrote down "there is no self in reality at all" and I felt relief and freedom in my heart. But, seconds after, I felt a little bit confused... I felt little bit of resistance.
I see a body, I see fingers tapping, but I'm thinking and writing "I" again...
I'm going for a walk in nature now, and see what happens...
See you...
With love!
Daniela
Hi Daniela,
Thank you for writing and thank you for wanting to go all the way through.
Tell me, what is I?
Is it I that moves the body?
Is it I that feels?
Is it I that thinks thoughts?
Can you find I in real life? Where can you find it? What is it and what is behind?
Just answer these questions honestly and precisely. When you are ready.
Much love.
Thank you, Ilona.
I went outside for a walk, and observe everything around me with my 5 senses and then, suddenly, a deep breath came along and I felt peace inside. Then I felt a hudge will of screaming and crying, but I was not angry or sad... it was very weird.
Tell me, what is I?
I don´t know what is I. is a label... a word to express a body, a mind, feelings.
Is it I that moves the body?
No it isn't... the body moves and lives without "my commands".
Is it I that feels?
What about feelings... the body feels.
Is it I that thinks thoughts?
The mind thinks thoughts... when I (body) feel bad, I question the thoughts and dont believe in them... and the bad feeling goes away.
Can you find I in real life? Where can you find it? What is it and what is behind?
I only can find "I" in the mind, like a thought... but can´t see the mind.
it seems like "I" is getting in the way of something bigger and great, it seems like "I" is wanting attention.
Can you help me and guide me all the way to see the truth?
...............
I wrote down "there is no self in reality at all" and I felt relief and freedom in my heart. But, seconds after, I felt a little bit confused... I felt little bit of resistance.
I see a body, I see fingers tapping, but I'm thinking and writing "I" again...
I'm going for a walk in nature now, and see what happens...
see you...
I woke up in the middle of the night and this thought pop up: "there is nothing to be understood... just let life be, let life flow and step aside."
Good one, Daniela! There is nothing to understand. Step aside! Great instructions from your brain.
Now is there anything that needs to step aside? is there a you other than a thought?
I tell you- there is not!
You cannot understand simply because there is no you to understand. There is understanding happening, but it's happening to no one. it is just an experience appearing in this moment.
Look right here: is there a reader somewhere inside that reads these words? is there some understander? is there a you? Or is this just that, reading, understanding happening as a flow of life right now?
What comes up here?
Great answers here, Daniela. You are getting close!
> I only can find "I" in the mind, like a thought... but can´t see the mind.
> it seems like "I" is getting in the way of something bigger and great, it seems like "I" is wanting attention.
Word mind is only a word pointing to thought, thought processes and thinking itself. There is no mind other than that.
I is also a word pointing to imagined being, but there is no being. Only life itself.
I can not get in a way, it's empty.
Conditioning, believing otherwise is getting in a way. Need to clear the thinking and it will all become visible and obvious.
Can we get back to the feeling? When you really look if it's true, that there is no you at all, only body/mind/brain operating and making decisions by itself, how does that feel?
Co you sense any discomfort? Fear? Uneasiness? Just look inside at the feelings and report what you find.
Now is there anything that needs to step aside? is there a you other than a thought?
it is only a thought.
Look right here: is there a reader somewhere inside that reads these words?
There is only the experience of reading.
Is there some understander? is there a you? Or is this just that, reading, understanding happening as a flow of life right now?
No. No. Yes.
What comes up here?
Presence. Life being.
Need to clear the thinking and it will all become visible and obvious.
I doesn't exist. The only thing that exists is life expressing itself through a body.
When you really look if it's true, that there is no you at all, only body/mind/brain operating and making decisions by itself, how does that feel?
First I felt doubt and uneasiness. And a little bit of fear too... but then another thought pop up: "Life is wise and intelligent! Trust life"
(",) And it feels free!!
Just look inside at the feelings and report what you find.
"Trust Life, trust life..." Wow!!
Now I relax and became feeling warm inside, light (weightless), joy... tears of joy.
is that really so simple Ilona?
it is really that simple!!!
it can't be simpler than that.
Life just is.
How does it feel to be liberated?
:))it is something I want to remember and feel every second.
Have no words to describe it... it feels sweet, just like a child playing happy.
Eternally grateful,
Much Love!
Awesome, Daniela. Just awesome. I'm soo delighted for you. So much appreciation here :))))
I have a few questions for you and if seeing happened, it will be easy to answer. Let it settle in a bit and write when you are ready :
1. What is self? How does it operate? Has there ever been a self?
2. What is Daniela? Look at the character, describe how that works.
3. What is real?
4. Is there a you, at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
5. What was it that pushed you over? Can you describe what happened.
Before answering your questions, allow me to write down something that seems relevant:
When "I" relax - and let life be - 2 powerful thoughts pop up:
1. "there is nothing to be understood... just let life be, let life flow and step aside."
2. "Life is wise and intelligent! Trust life"
From where did come those 2 thoughts that pop up and made me felt peaceful?
There must be a wise mind shared by all, and that wise mind is life it self...
Could the source of life be a peaceful, loving and wise mind shared by all?
Where do thoughts come from?
These thoughts came from exactly same place like every other.
And yes, there is intelligence working here. Look at evolution. Every life form is adapting, evolving, mutating. Human too :) it's not separate from life, it's expression of life. Life is living itself not through us but as us.
How does it look from where you are?
How would you answer this?
Dear Ilona, from here it seems like this:
The source of life is one wise Mind, peaceful, joyful and loving. And the source of life did not create this world.
There is no evolution, no illumination. Life, like is source, is perfect and complete just the way it is.
imagine the Mind being the sun, and the life being the rays of the sun, the sunshine. Life is connected with the Mind and life is also peace, love, and joy.
We are life, we are already complete, sinless and perfect. Life is one with the Mind (life is expressing as our mind and our mind it is not in the brain or is not limited by the body). We have no physical form and we are all connected. The parts have the all and the all have the parts.
But somehow along the way, we play along and forgot who we are... we forgot that we are life (peace, love and joy) connected to the wise Mind. Somehow along the way, we begin believing we are separated minds and feeling guilty of being separated from the wise Mind. And we project that feeling inside in others outside. And what we project we perceive. it seems like a vicious cycle created by a virus in the mind - the thought of separation.
We also believe that thoughts have no power. (But mind creates with thoughts. Thoughts become feelings and actions). We believe that what is perfect can become imperfect. And even worst, we believe that we can control and change life. And finally, we believe the self is real... the limited, imperfect, guilty little self always looking outside for attention to feel value. And we created this virtual world based upon projection of the unconscious feeling of guilt and limitation inside of us. The self does not exist, ok... but as long as many minds BELiEVE in it, it becomes a virtual reality where we believe we are living. I think Henry Ford said that: "if you think you can do a thing or think you can't do a thing, you're right." Our beliefs controls our biology.
Our free will is not about choosing our destination. Our free will is about to choose between listen the thoughts of the wise Mind or the thoughts of the self. The thoughts of the Mind bring us peace and no doubt, makes as feel good and big in our heart, is our intuition, our inspiration. They share and expand love. The wise Mind is in our unconscious mind, just waiting to be heard.
The thoughts of the self creates fear. And this is a virtual world created by the self. The world is virtual because the self is also virtual, it does not exist. Yet, we believe in it. And whatever a mind believe, it becomes! The mind is creative and powerful. We are powerful behind limits and an infinite field of possibilities. And we can do miracles if we let the wise Mind express as us!
Later I will answer your 5 questions...
Hi Daniela,
Please answer the questions. :)
as for your nice letter, life is not just love and peace. it's everything included. Totality of everything. When a wolf is catching a fluffy rabbit to feed her babies it's just life. it is also cruel, dark and painful. if you think that it's all love peace and joy you are only looking at one side, not at a whole picture.
Also, there is no free will....
But please focus first on question, then we can talk more.
Will be looking forward to your answers.
Much love!!
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1. What is self? How does it operate? Has there ever been a self?
Self is a constant thought, imagination. it takes the conciousness away from the present moment where life is expressing. No, there never has been a self, only life and experiences. Self is like a virtual reality.
2. What is Daniela? Look at the character, describe how that works.
Daniela is life expressing as a mind/body. Daniela is life expressing and living experiences like all the millions of possible characters. Daniela is life playing.
3. what is real?
All this world is an illusion. Real is life expressing as everything there is... can´t see life just experience life
4. is there a you, at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
No there isn´t.
5. What was it, that pushed you over? Can you describe what happened.
When "I" relax - and let life be - 2 powerful thoughts pop up:
1. "there is nothing to be understood... just let life be, let life flow and step aside."
2. "Life is wise and intelligent! Trust life."
thoughts are imagination, they're not real, so nothing real really happened, just life playing around.
Great! Thank you.
One thing I want to talk to you about is reality.
You said that this world is an illusion. I say that this world is real. It does not disappear if you stop believing in it. It’s real experience, real feelings, real thoughts, real trees, real body, real character Daniela. It’s all real. What is illusion is the 'self' or I as a separate entity.
Look around and feel the reality of what is. Get in touch with real things, real earth, real everything. No matter what it is made of. it is here now. Life.
We are not, but life is. Can you see life living it's life? Existence of existence?
Can you see? When you look at your hand, what do you see? Atoms, illusion or a real hand that is always here, same hand ageing and changing, but real.
And look at the character a bit deeper, can you see how beautiful Daniela is. it's a real character! Like batman, real fiction. Real illusion.
My Dear Ilona, thank you for staying with this with me... it has been interesting letting life flow, letting just things be as they are without the blá blá blá's I. it feels good being in the present moment... and observe all the beliefs that the "I" that doesn't exist believes!!!
You said that this world is an illusion. I say that this world is real. it does not disappear if you stop believing in it. it's real experience, real feelings, real thoughts, real trees, real body, real character Daniela. it's all real. What is illusion is the 'self' or I as a separate entity.
Right. The self or I as a separate entity is an illusion. The world is life expressing as us humans, animals, plants, minerals, water, air, fire, earth... and that's real life.
Yes, life simply is. Life living as us, experience life.
Can you see? When you look at your hand, what do you see? Atoms, illusion or a real hand that is always here, same hand ageing and changing, but real.
Can´t see atoms... can see a real hand.
Thank you!!
I see that you are through :)
Life looks different now for sure.
Thank you!
Do you have any more question, anything I can help you with?
if so- shoot.
if not, may I use this for the blog, I'm sure your words, your process will help many others to see this simple truth. Are you ok with using your name Daniela or do you want me to use something else?
Also, as things come up after seeing, since life does not stop here, but carries on as usual, there might be some times when you need some support. Email me. Anytime. As well there is a group on Facebook called 'enlightened people' find me on fb and I'll invite you there. it's only people who saw through the illusion and it's great help when/ if needed.
So much love and appreciation here.
Thank you. Dear ilona!
Thank you! You can use my name Daniela, yes, that's ok.
Let me make a summary of what I learn:
There is no separated "I". We are all one life... we are all one.
The "secret" is to live in the present moment, observe, allow life to flow, and don't believe in all thoughts.
I have some questions and some practical doubts, if you will to answer me, I'll be glad:
in the last e-maill you said that life "is also cruel, dark and painful." How do you feel with that thought?
When thoughts made you feel bad or when something shakes you really bad, or when you see something that bothers, how do you overcome that situation? Just accepting that life is that?
And do you know:
How mind works? Conscious and unconscious? Where is the mind? We know the brain is in the body, we see him. We know brain is like an antenna that captures thoughts... but where thoughts come from?
And if "Every life form is adapting, evolving, mutating." how does life evolves? Life is learning? Life is learning as us?
And why do you say "there is no free will...."?
Great love for you
you can answer all your questions no since you saw that there is no self. :) you can look at everything that you know with fresh look and see if what you know is really true. only illusion burns. that which is real stays untouched. try it.
In the last e-mail you said that life "is also cruel, dark and painful." How do you feel with that thought?
Totality includes everything. It’s not just joy, its pain too. When you look and see, that there is no being behind the I, look at other people, are there other beings behind I? How about the rapist, or pedophile, how about somebody who murders people for pleasure? is there a separate being in there? Hitler? There is darkness, there is light and everything in between, but there is no separate beings.. One life. One confusion in the one mind... don't be afraid to look at darkness.
When thoughts made you feel bad or when something shakes you really bad, or when you see something that bothers, how do you overcome that situation? Just accepting that life is that?
it has been a while since I seen it and layers of beliefs have fallen off... I don't feel bad anymore. when I get shaken by life (very very rarely, almost none) it's just blank inside. no feeling that it's good or bad, just nothing. otherwise anything that seems to go around, does not touch the imaginary I, so nothing bothers. it's a lot to do with intentional clearing of debris. like after tsunami, there is lots of rubble and dead bodies, all takes time to clean up. trusting life, trusting truth, having faith in truth is like a weapon to clear the path to complete ease of living. also it helps when you try to free others. it gives you a chance to look at the illusion and cut it out. by helping others, you help Daniela too. ( sounds bizarre, but true.)
And do you know:
How mind works? Conscious and unconscious? Where is the mind? We know the brain is in the body, we see him. We know brain is like an antenna that captures thoughts... but where thoughts come from?
And if "Every life form is adapting, evolving, mutating." how does life evolves? Life is learning? Life is learning as us?
life is alive. everything that is alive evolves. changes. birth life death.. see if you can notice that around.
And why do you say "there is no free will...."?
who is there to choose?
Dear Ilona!
I am aware that what i see outside is what is inside: we are all one, no boundaries... I’m not afraid to look at the dark, Ilona. I don't believe that there is darkness. I see it and feel it but i don’t believe it´s real. But I still feel and bother... and when ever darkness come: fear, anger, hate, sadness inside, in me or in others, i let it come, don't think about it, don´t judge it, just let it come, and show it the light.
I'm not afraid... i can make darkness disappear in minutes and turn it in peace. Peace comes along in a few minutes. That´s a little miracle i do when i remember and have faith in the truth. The darkness is just a mistake in the one mind. I do my part to correct it, cleaning it up in "my" mind. I use the light to do that. And if light undo darkness, darkness is an illusion.
For me darkness is just absence of light, it as no source, is an illusion. Just like cold is absence of heat... you bring heat and cold disappears. You bring darkness to light and darkness disappears.
I agree with you, there are no separate beings. I agree with you about the confusion in the one mind...
But I don't agree with you when you say there is no being. For me there is one being. Just one being, one mind. For me, the illusion is the existence of darkness, you see? Whenever i see darkness, i make a little miracle: in a few minutes i use the light and undo darkness in "my" mind, in the one mind. That´s how i help!
But, like you said, I can look at everything that I know with fresh look and see if what I know is really true.
I will do it...
Trusting life, trusting truth, having faith in truth is like a weapon to clear the path to complete ease of living.
I will trust more in life, yes!! Have to remember that always, thank you!! (",)
it gives you a chance to look at the illusion and cut it out. by helping others, you help Daniela too.
It sounds perfect to me, dear Ilona!!
You are a natural alchemist! Love you.
Yes, keep transforming darkness :)
Same here.
Only, I see the others. The ones that are still separate, confused in the mind, that's why I do what I do, to bring the end to illusion so one being can be free. Even though there is no one here, liberation IS happening.
Helping others around is helping the one.
I'd love a massage! You must be giving best massages ;)
Love you too!
Love your work!
I see others too! (",)When you want to come to Portugal, call me here!
We can meet; I’ll give u a massage!
I love massages too.. When i do it, one hour seems like 10 minutes to me!
Have an excellent day,
Extremely grateful and happy to know you,
Daniela
few days later:
Hi Ilonai
I´m going fine, thanks. It seems like i'm learning to live again! The moments of confusion are followed by moments of livid clarity. yes, there was a huge shift and many synchronicities occur. Now 'im home.
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