Monday, 27 July 2020

What is your heart’s deepest longing?

Very often the heart wants peace. There's also wanting freedom, wanting to expand, to love deeper, to be open, to be recognized, to heal. It's good to know what the heart wants, so that we can give it to it. And that literally means giving it your own attention. Attention works like a key and the heart is like a lock.

So if you give your attention to the heart over and over again, during the day, multiple times, five seconds, five minutes, it doesn't matter. It's just remembering to put that attention into your heart and feeling what is actually there, like honestly here, nurturing the heart. 

This is the path to inner peace, to feeling more spaciousness, more stillness, more feeling at home, at ease, relaxed in your own being. When the heart gets what it wants, then it rests at peace here. It's like - nothing to do, nowhere to go, but be here, simply enjoying and allowing energy from the heart to flow freely, to feel that love, to love unconditionally. The heart wants is to love and to feel loved and give more love. 

That's your own sense of love. It's coming from within. The love is not outside and it's not something that you have to catch and bring it to your heart. It's something that is coming from inside and it resonates with other hearts and it can share that energy between them.

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Sunday, 5 July 2020

YouTube Video Series: Finding Inner Peace

Sitting at home for a long time gave me a good opportunity to re-examine what is the most important and meaningful for me. 

I enjoy so much working with my clients assisting them with self-inquiry. It’s a great joy for me to witness and be part of the self-discovery process, where clarity gets revealed. It is great to be able to give real value and help my clients to relax in life, to find lasting peace and joy in everyday living. 

I just wish that more people could find peace in their own sense of being. How could I get the message across to more people? Here something new has taken up my focus and interest: I have created a YouTube video series called Finding Inner Peace in your own sense of being. 

Today I am releasing the first part. 

Using my experience of hundreds of hours of guiding to the sense of being I have set up a course of self-inquiry. I share questions and metaphors and give a different perspective to look at what is always here, but goes unnoticed. I invite you to take part in this experience. It’s like an experiment where you can answer given questions for yourself and see what you learn, what else you discover, what new insights come. You do not have to agree or disagree with my ideas, the important thing is that you find out what you really think and feel. 

In this course, I invite you to examine different aspects of your experience and that leads you into recognizing and connecting to what is true for you. 

The first video is about obstacles to inner peace, what they are, and how to turn them into allies. It is a big question — how to deal with fear, resistance, and distraction? I invite you to see them differently and use them as your stepping stones towards inner freedom. 

Second video looks at expectations, and how they obstruct seeing what is here with ideas of what this should be. It’s one of the biggest challenges on the path to peace, as we all have them. And they keep running “not enough” program until examined. 

In the third video, I invite you to take a fresh look at the mind, what you know about your own mind, how you think, how is imagination working in your own experience, what has language got to do with it. How to get the mind to end the struggle and fight what is?

The fourth video is about heart and feelings. How to find inner peace within and with all these feelings. I will invite you to explore and find out what is your heart’s biggest longing. Once it is known, you can satisfy it, by giving your attention to it. Then the constant sense of deep longing can self-release. Thereof more spaciousness and peace are felt in your own being. 

Then we will look at the body and what this body is in actual experience. I will invite you to reevaluate the assumed default perception and description of the body and rediscover what is going on in your experience. 

This is just for the starters. Subscribe to my channel if you like to be notified when the next video is released and let’s get into this self-inquiry together. :) Invite your friends. Write about what you would like to explore. I will post a new video on Sundays. 

I also want to say that I am new to video content creation and I have so much to learn. It is fun and quite a challenge. It takes many hours of work to get a video made as I am learning on the go. Hope that you will see the quality improvement with each video. 

Enjoy exploring. 

With love. 







Tuesday, 2 June 2020

What Are You Looking For?


Do you often stop and evaluate, what is it that you are looking for precisely?

Seeking energy always wants something. Something else, than what is here. It needs to understand, to get, to achieve, to be heard, to be validated, etc. It’s a nonstop drive that is literally saying, what is here, what I have, what I am is not enough. And so we are on a carousel of trying to get something, to fix, to satisfy the thirst of seeking.

When you ask this question of yourself, what is the answer? What are you looking for in life?

The ultimate answer is peace. That’s like the last question after all the other questions have ceased. How to find inner peace in life? How to be at peace with yourself and others? How to be at rest, always? All the tensions and contractions want to release, naturally. But how to get there?

This peace, stillness, spaciousness, silence is always here underneath all turbulence. It takes noticing. It is here when you look AT it. Then looking for something else shifts to looking at this that is. The peace is found here, underneath all thinking and feeling- like a background in which all the waves of happenings are free to come and go. It's like diving deeply in the experience that is happening now and being aware of all the waves at the mind level and at the same time being aware of being aware. What is that knows of all the waves and peace?

Peace does not come and go. It’s here now, even this moment. What are you focusing on, what is attention landing on? Is it peace or tension? To get to peace, first, we need to meet that tension that is asking for our attention. Being aware of contracted energy, meeting it with respect and kindness, non-judgment, allowing, welcoming allows that contraction to self-release. And what is here when tension dissolves? Space. And peace is here when you are resting as that space. It is inside your own heart. There is also joy there, the joy of being, that’s is sweet and innocent. And that is available in every moment.

It takes a noticing and looking at what is presently here.


For more info on how I can assist you to find what you are looking for, please visit my website.
www.Ilonaciunaite.com




Tuesday, 8 October 2019

Enlightened Ego Trip

Yes, there are real masters and they are rare and precious. But most enlightened masters you will meet, especially on the internet, are wannabes who believe themselves to be special.

While in Mexico I had a pleasure to meet an extreme case of fake enlightened master called swami Rajneesh. He built a retreat center in the jungle called Ozen. Thousands of spiritual tourists go there looking for something. On the good side, there are music festivals there, that attract lots of young people, yoga teachers get to share their teachings and so on. But when I walked around the place, the energy there was strange. It was shocking to see white marble floors and chandeliers in a jungle. It was so bombastic and surreal to see Japanese restaurant and star-shaped glasshouses that did not seem to belong there. The atmosphere was odd, something weird was going on, I could taste the flavor of fakeness in the air.

And then I met the master. In the first three minutes of the conversation, he introduced himself to me and my husband as an enlightened master and said that he does not need to explain himself. I could hardly hold a straight face listening to his stories about his achievements and it was rather unpleasant to watch young devotee girls and boys staring at him without blinking, listening to every word.

This enlightened master has quite a reputation, but I leave it here, if you are interested, google him and find out more. He is the author of a few books and one of them is called “I and I”. He was very proud of that. And frankly, we spent an hour listening to him talking about himself, how amazing experiences he had and how special he is. He claimed that he spent 8 years in silence on a mountain, but the volume of his speech was saying that is not possible. There was no peace around him.

We brought Ajnalight for him and people of the center to try, we thought they may be interested in meditating with the light and we were wrong. Swami Rajneesh said that light is dangerous. That the guy who invented it is harming people and he said it all before he even tried it or heard what it was for. After trying it out for himself he was impressed with the technology, but not interested.

That’s the fakest teacher I ever met in person. And the ego was so inflated you could wonder how he can fool anyone, but there were enough young seekers around him who followed him and craved his attention. Nothing in the center went without his blessing. It was obvious — this is a cult, created around some very shady personality on an ego trip. Why are these people believing him?

If one is repeating often enough about how enlightened one is, there will be followers and someone will believe that. Many people are seeking and a strong personality has the power to attract. The worst thing is that the person starts believing that he is enlightened himself. And that is dangerous, for him and everyone around. The especially special person will become a teacher that will promise you that if you followed them they will give you what you want, only to hook you on and get your money and will power.

There is an extensive history of cults on this planet with extreme outcomes and mass suicides, where believers follow and are manipulated by the leader of the cult. And if you know anyone affected by cult movements or lost a friend or a family member to one, you know how insane that is, how dangerous it is and how innocent people that want to believe, to belong, get hurt. Even if it ends well, it is a painful lesson with a high price to pay for being a part of someone’s ego trip.

I had a friend once that we spent a lot of time talking on Facebook. I witnessed all her hardships, hang ups, addictions and behavior left from unhealed childhood traumas. She is now writing books that are filled with stories about her, calling herself a Buddha and giving practical advise on enlightenment. In reality this could not be further from the truth. I met her in life, outside Facebook. That was a meeting that ended our friendship. She wanted to be a teacher desperately and could not even face her own shadow. It was too much for her - the contrast of wanting to be someone important in the world and terror of being utterly lost. I could no longer support her ways and her ideas and had to cut myself out from that relationship. For that I got plenty of back slashing, attacking, denying, public revelations wrapped up in words like “I’m honest, I’m transparent, I’m special.”

“No you are not. You are on an ego trip.”— That’s all I can say.

She has followers and admirers who will feed her ego and allow her to grow it. This really is not a good idea to do that, because it’s dangerous and deceiving. To this day she can not face me as I remind her of deep pain within, that hasn’t been resolved and all she knows is to avoid it. By putting a mask of someone entitled to give you advice on enlightenment, she is playing a dangerous game with herself. Irony at it’s best. 

You would laugh out loud if Buddha told you that he is learning how to be himself from Human Design or astrology. Or that he needs a certificate to coach people how to live. Supporting such ideas leads nowhere near freedom. This is a trip that sooner or later will have to end in crashing down. When that happens the victim of her own specialness will be free. But as long as one believes to be enlightened and has the support of the crowd, one is blind and dangerous. Dangerous because she puts herself on a pedestal and plays the role of a teacher — the biggest prize for the ego. Where is a need for followers, humility is lost. Then there comes a challenge of keeping a perfect image, that would be loved and adored. But under that mask, there is a lot of pain, which is screaming to be healed. Only it can not while being denied and run away from. There is no sense of peace around such a person and you can taste a flavor of the desperation of being accepted as someone important and exaggerated need for attention. Being kind in such a situation is not supporting inflation of the enlightened ego at all.

So if you read a book or go to a meeting with an enlightened master who introduces himself like that, don’t take him seriously. Don’t take advice on enlightenment from just anyone that assumes they are entitled to give it. Of course, reading stories about someone else’s seeking experiences can be helpful, fun and entertaining. You may resonate with experiences described and like the author for good writing. But don’t be fooled. Stories about me and my extraordinary experiences have nothing to do with enlightenment.

Beware of fake teachers. They may know or not what they are doing. But feeding them your energy is certainly not doing any good. Sometimes these people teach us how not to behave.

Life dances and experiences show up filled with life’s lessons. There is nothing wrong with that and we are here to learn and to respect the journeys of others. Believing yourself to be enlightened can be a real trap as well as following one of those humans. An especially special persona can be recognized and avoided. Better look inside and find that timeless being which needs no following nor followers and can simply enjoy being, in all the ordinary simplicity of peace.