Friday, 18 March 2011
One day in the story she woke up, she saw how ridiculous situation is, that humans are full of themselves, ignoring what is in front of their eyes, immersed in drama, believing it's real and not questioning if it is.
One day she saw, that there was no self, but only life flowing, character playing the role, that can not be chosen by character itself. The character Ilona is the play. There is nothing behind. There is no one directing it, it plays itself. Self existing play.
Whatever thoughts appear, it's part of play. Whatever move she makes it's part of play.
Seeing this the suffering drops, no more tears, no more heartbreake, no more owning pain. No more sticking to emotions and owning them, just flow, just a movie. That which is, just is. And it's everything. The grand show of humans is on, nobody is watching, as there is nobody here, but self existing play. Woo Hoo!
Let's go back to Ilona.
It appears that it is her writing this. It isn't really- just flow, just play, just life, without a separate person. The show is going on.
And you are in it- a character that plays out a role perfectly, there is no bad acting. Every act is perfect. Every character that she meets only know her as a character and to everyone she is different. A fiction. Like batman.
Creative power is playing, expressing as stories, as feelings that stories raise up.
Look at the game Sims. It's a simple version of what is going on in the human game of evolution on planet Earth. the characters are created, given features, likes, dislikes, appearance, name, etc and they are dropped into a house where they go around their normal needs, like eating, washing, toilet, work, make money, socialise etc.
Character Ilona hated this game, it seemed to her so evil, the players seemed so powerless, such puppets of the one with a kreyboard and mouse. But she is just the same- a character, who goes around her day, powerless to change the script as it is the script that plays out as her.
Whatever comes up is part of play. And that's all there is. Only there is no man with a keyboard and mouse. Hihi
In the story of character Ilona since seeing through illusion of separate self the freedom keeps expanding. The joy is here, the story is about losing all that does not serve her anymore.
Whatever happens, there is this deep knowing that Ilona feels- the flow is. It's nothing that she can do about it. So flowing peacefully within it is such a exciting way to live. Whatever is expressing itself is unstoppable and welcome.
Like this post. It happens by itself. Forget about Ilona, see for yourself. There is no you but play is on, the fictional character........ (your name) is in it. And that is it.