Friday, 8 April 2011
Another End- Beginning
There is a feeling of contentment and wholeness that is settling in the life of Ilona. Peace and quite. Relaxed great-fulness. And it does not matter what seems to be going on around.
The next stage is being set up. The big move is on a way: going to a new town, new house, next place I'm gonna call home. Just waiting for the paperwork to go through and next wave carry us over...
It has been a year since finding Jed McKenna. It's been crazy! Madness maddened- I know what that points to. And here I am after the storm of self catch and release, open to whatever comes next, trusting life and enjoying the simple being.
Here is another end-beginning taking shape.
Yesterday just before the end of paperwork thing, here was a cloud hanging in the open space, "what if..." I felt the sense of frustration rising, what if it all goes wrong, what if we don't get the house which already felt like home. What if shit happens and I have no plan B?
A friend reminded me to focus on all things that I appreciate right now. Thank you Elena! After a while of feeling appreciation the smile came back and cloud seemed to have passed away.
The drama only lives in the mind and feeds on thoughts. It's pointless. Yet necessary as it can show where lack of trust is hiding.
Mind is such powerful tool, such amazing gift. And learning to navigate it is like learning to navigate a spaceship. It can be natural but it helps to learn some tricks!
Trust in life is something that let's you breathe easy no matter what. Trust that everything that is happening is a part of bigger pattern. And the full glory of perfection can be seen in tiny imperfections... Which is perfect too. A bit of frustration in the end of the road just shows, how easy ride it has been so far.
Getting ready to move.